The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12: Turmoil

***Natalia***

Zane leaves to collect his things and Agnes from Nikki and Micah’s place, giving me the chance to really think about what I just agreed to.I head to the bathroom to splash cool water on my face and neck, letting out a huge sigh as I wipe the sweat from my brow.

My reflection mocks my pathetic situation, laughing at me for accepting yet another wolf into my life.

‘Don’t let him get too close” I remind myself.

‘ Every kind gesture, every kiss, every gentle caress of my face…it will all be a lie.He doesn’t really love me.He doesn’t care about me no matter how much he says he does”

Tears spring to my eyes as I think about all the times Christian looked me in the eyes with such false sincerity, professing his undying love for me all the while f*****g my sister behind my back.

Wiping the tears that stain my cheeks, I inspect my reflection, my eyes scrutinizing every imperfection.

Dark circles hug my eyes from my restless night.

Fearful that Zane would find me, I called out of work this morning, keeping Kota home instead of taking him to daycare.

Of course, my attempts proved futile.

The wolf found me without much effort.

‘I am not good enough to fall in love with anyways” I shrug to myself, drying off my face.

‘I couldn’t even keep my husband interested in me before he looked elsewhere…Perhaps Zane will also find me inadequate as a mate and move on as well..” I nod at my reflection reassuringly.

‘Yes.Sooner or later, he’ll stop liking me and I’ll be free”

Having given myself the pep talk of the century, I hurry to find little Kota playing in the backyard and call him to me.He happily waddles over to me with a grin on his face.

“Where’s Zane, mommy?” he asks, looking behind me into the living room.

“Can he come play with me?”

I crouch down and lift him into my arms, carrying him over to the living room and sitting him down on the sofa.I smooth down his hair and cup his chubby cheeks in my hands.

“Kota,” I say, forcing a smile for him.

“What do you think about Zane staying with us … just for a little bit?”

His eyes widen with joy.

“Yeah!” He cries, jumping up on his feet and clapping his hands.

“Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!”

“You like that idea?” I ask, raising an eyebrow at him.

Kota jumps onto the couch and bursts into laughter.

“Yeah,” he giggles, resting his chin in his hands.

“And what about Agnes? Can she stay here too?” I ask.

Kota bounces on his toes, shooting his fingers up in a happy I pout at him.

“I thought I made the best cookies…”

“No,” he grins, shaking his head and jumping up like a rabbit.

I feign hurt at his honesty and he rushes up to kiss me square on the lips.

“But Mommy makes the best pancakes!” He chirps.

Kota suddenly stretches out his arms like a plane and flies over to his toy chest, pulling out his favorite toy train and action figures.

“What are you doing?” I ask as he makes a small pile of toys.

“To play with Zane,” he shrugs as if that were the most obvious answer.

Worry fills my heart as I realize that Kota would be affected by Zane’s imminent departure.

I would need to do everything in my power to make sure Zane rejects me quickly and leaves us both in one piece.

“Remember, Kota,” I sigh, crawling over to him.

“He’s only here for a little while.He won’t be here forever.Entiendes? understand ?”I ask.

He nods and continues to make a pile of toys for Zane when he arrives.

Seeing no point in explaining any further, I rush off to the guest room and ensure it’s comfortable for Agnes, changing the sheets and myself to share my space with a man.

for Zane and make room in the

Queen sized bed I was expected to share with

was large enough to fit us both but we would inevitably touch during

touching me in

would leave me be and not punish me so! I readjust the pillows and an

sun begins to set in the horizon and

my mind, the doorbell rings, my heart sinking knowing who the

rush over to the door, taking a deep breath as

mother smile politely at me, Nikki and Micah waiting just

dry

single small bag with what I assume are their belongings while

up to the man

“You’re here!”

man throws his bag over his shoulder and bends down flip at the sight of my son running into Zane’s arms so

had already won Kota over.Would I fall so easily for him too? *No, I shake my

Be strong.I have to be

“Sorry we’re late,”

promised Agnes we’d take her to town to go shopping for more clothes.They…they didn’t bring much with them to begin

her room while Micah and Niki begin unloading the shopping bags in the

turn to Zane

is your room”

down the hall to the left,” I say, pointing down

kindly at me and I find it impossible to hate her.She was not

signs, her eyes widening as she takes in the

something to Zane and he smiles back at

her hand feeling the soft fabric of the

me, my body stiffening It was just a simple room

my arms around Agnes and accept

leaning his head

she crying?” He

an explanation but he remains silent as ever, only patting Kota’s

pulls away, her cheeks flushed pink in embarrassment

room and begins unpacking her

to

Zane puts Kota down and follows close behind me, Kota running down the hall

thoughts elsewhere as I feel the urge

bond, I mutter

room and I

space in the closet for you to hang your things,” I shrug.I

clarify the bedding arrangement, I go to the closet and select

I smirk, pointing to

me completely dumbfounded at

“What?” I shrug indifferently.

we share the ‘bedroom’ It did not

his lips together in what I can only assume is annoyance and nods solemnly, knowing he could not force me

almost feel bad for making this small adjustment but it

my home with a wolf, a stranger no less, but I could not stomach the idea of sleeping

and his entire species disgusted

I will leave you to unpack,” I say,

chattering away with Micah in the living room, Kota inspecting the tattoos

look!” He chirps as he hears me walk

his arm! Look!

Micah’s

I say, forcing a smile for his

okay?” Nikki asks as she comes in

thinking of last night and the possibility that my friends were not who I

I gulp, looking over at

like Zane and Agnes?” I ask, clasping and unclasping my hands

and Nikki exchange glances before

he’s your

my skin, not at their lie but at the fact

everywhere, infecting every aspect of my life like a

asks, a worried look on her

we never meant you or Kota any harm,” she adds quickly, as if to clarify that

you or Kota.” I almost

I won’t hurt

their teeth into your back when

you,” I

Niki shifts nervously on her feet and I ask a question that kept

I ask, my heart in

me.I would need to leave at once

shakes his

in Poulsbo.Nikki and I are

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