The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 12: Turmoil

***Natalia***

Zane leaves to collect his things and Agnes from Nikki and Micah’s place, giving me the chance to really think about what I just agreed to.I head to the bathroom to splash cool water on my face and neck, letting out a huge sigh as I wipe the sweat from my brow.

My reflection mocks my pathetic situation, laughing at me for accepting yet another wolf into my life.

‘Don’t let him get too close” I remind myself.

‘ Every kind gesture, every kiss, every gentle caress of my face…it will all be a lie.He doesn’t really love me.He doesn’t care about me no matter how much he says he does”

Tears spring to my eyes as I think about all the times Christian looked me in the eyes with such false sincerity, professing his undying love for me all the while f*****g my sister behind my back.

Wiping the tears that stain my cheeks, I inspect my reflection, my eyes scrutinizing every imperfection.

Dark circles hug my eyes from my restless night.

Fearful that Zane would find me, I called out of work this morning, keeping Kota home instead of taking him to daycare.

Of course, my attempts proved futile.

The wolf found me without much effort.

‘I am not good enough to fall in love with anyways” I shrug to myself, drying off my face.

‘I couldn’t even keep my husband interested in me before he looked elsewhere…Perhaps Zane will also find me inadequate as a mate and move on as well..” I nod at my reflection reassuringly.

‘Yes.Sooner or later, he’ll stop liking me and I’ll be free”

Having given myself the pep talk of the century, I hurry to find little Kota playing in the backyard and call him to me.He happily waddles over to me with a grin on his face.

“Where’s Zane, mommy?” he asks, looking behind me into the living room.

“Can he come play with me?”

I crouch down and lift him into my arms, carrying him over to the living room and sitting him down on the sofa.I smooth down his hair and cup his chubby cheeks in my hands.

“Kota,” I say, forcing a smile for him.

“What do you think about Zane staying with us … just for a little bit?”

His eyes widen with joy.

“Yeah!” He cries, jumping up on his feet and clapping his hands.

“Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!”

“You like that idea?” I ask, raising an eyebrow at him.

Kota jumps onto the couch and bursts into laughter.

“Yeah,” he giggles, resting his chin in his hands.

“And what about Agnes? Can she stay here too?” I ask.

Kota bounces on his toes, shooting his fingers up in a happy I pout at him.

“I thought I made the best cookies…”

“No,” he grins, shaking his head and jumping up like a rabbit.

I feign hurt at his honesty and he rushes up to kiss me square on the lips.

“But Mommy makes the best pancakes!” He chirps.

Kota suddenly stretches out his arms like a plane and flies over to his toy chest, pulling out his favorite toy train and action figures.

“What are you doing?” I ask as he makes a small pile of toys.

“To play with Zane,” he shrugs as if that were the most obvious answer.

Worry fills my heart as I realize that Kota would be affected by Zane’s imminent departure.

I would need to do everything in my power to make sure Zane rejects me quickly and leaves us both in one piece.

“Remember, Kota,” I sigh, crawling over to him.

“He’s only here for a little while.He won’t be here forever.Entiendes? understand ?”I ask.

He nods and continues to make a pile of toys for Zane when he arrives.

Seeing no point in explaining any further, I rush off to the guest room and ensure it’s comfortable for Agnes, changing the sheets and myself to share my space with a man.

drawers for Zane and make room in the closet for his

stare at the Queen sized bed I was

to fit us both but we would inevitably touch

man touching me in my

Goddess would leave me be and not punish me so! I readjust the pillows

until the sun begins to set in the horizon and a small part of me hopes

the thought enters my mind, the doorbell rings, my heart sinking knowing

bed and rush over to the door, taking a deep breath as

his mother smile politely at me, Nikki and Micah waiting

my saliva will soothe my dry

single small bag with what I assume are their belongings while Niki and Micah carry what appear to be shopping

cries, rushing up to the man with

“You’re here!”

bends down flip at the sight of my son

had already won Kota over.Would I fall so easily for him too?

I’ll Be strong.I have to be strong for

“Sorry we’re late,”

take her to town to go shopping for more clothes.They…they didn’t bring much with them to

silently and lead Agnes to her room while Micah and Niki begin unloading the

room, I turn to Zane and

your room” I

bed.The bathroom is down the hall to

smiles kindly at me and I find it impossible to hate

her eyes widening as she takes

to Zane and he smiles back at

the bed, shocked by how bouncy and comfortable it is, her hand feeling the soft

eyes and rushes to hug me, my body stiffening It was just a simple room with a large window looking

my arms around Agnes

curiously at us, leaning

why she crying?” He

he remains silent as ever, only patting

cheeks flushed pink

the room and begins unpacking her

curtly, gesturing to Zane and turning to leave

close behind me, Kota running down the hall to get

Zane, I force my thoughts elsewhere as I feel the urge to turn around and hold

bond, I

room and I point to

space in the closet for you to hang your things,” I shrug.I turn to find him staring at the bed and feel my cheeks heat

to clarify the bedding arrangement, I go to the closet and

be sleeping over there,” I smirk,

dumbfounded at

“What?” I shrug indifferently.

share the ‘bedroom’ It did not specify

annoyance and

bad for making this small adjustment but it could

with a wolf, a stranger no less, but I could not stomach the idea of sleeping in the same bed

his entire species

all out of the way, I will leave you to unpack,” I say, stepping around him and exiting

away with Micah in the living

He chirps as he hears me

his

Micah’s tattoos and

cool,” I say, forcing a

she comes in with the

night and the possibility that my friends were not who I thought they were.I decide to

you….Are you also …” I gulp, looking over at Kota who continues to stroke Micah’s tattoos

Agnes?” I ask,

exchange glances before Niki sighs

we know he’s

cold anger tremble under my skin, not at their lie but at the fact that I had never been truly free of werewolves as

were everywhere, infecting every aspect of my life like a

upset with us?” Niki asks,

as if to clarify that they were not

dream of hurting you or Kota.” I

won’t hurt

teeth into your back when you weren’t looking.I

I reply coldly

on her feet and I ask a question that

I ask, my

Christian and the Silver Crest wolves came looking for me.I

Micah shakes

and