The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night hook-up…’ Why

so

he

be able

the lounge

Malevolent to my

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the

are open, but I have no energy to get up and

did I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish,

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me…

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then I’ll

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

finds out, I bet he’ll

other

Nice work.

side, I

hair, breathing deeply,

more than

the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

how can I always be

think I’m

tough

you with everything I have… but no one sees the

a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the

void so big

into it and never

where you want

cry, both threatening to take

to wreak havoc

me, or

feel something other than empty, angry or out

lip quivers and I stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him.

it is momentary… deep down, I know

stare at my phone.

him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I

together again.

but I should be

That doesn’t mean he needed to

with me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

meows, but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something

I run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself

vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura

my aura, are not enough right now.

growl as my Lycan

in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at the

within me. 4

like my head will burst as

but I can’t