The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’ Why

words sting so

my head; he

be able to go back

to the

Malevolent to

and watch the shadowy patterns of

are open, but I have no energy to get

did I

casual hook-ups aren’t uncommon

who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing

was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense.

know it makes me a bitch, but if I

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted

other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I

my hair,

more than

the guilt and hollowness

can I

I’m a fucking

tough

one sees the fucked up

my fingers, trying to rid the horrid

void so big I may

into it and never return.

state where you want

both threatening to take

wreak havoc and

or even… destroy

other than empty, angry or

myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll

at my phone.

feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and

together again.

but I should be happy

That doesn’t mean he needed to

me… and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever

run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within

shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that

to mask my

growl as my Lycan

through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding

within me. 4

head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers,

splinter the wood but I can’t hold