The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night

so much

shake my head; he

I won’t be able to go back to

head to the lounge

Malevolent to my chest.

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the

the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are

I

casual hook-ups aren’t

know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing

getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I

and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that

other

Nice work.

side, I run

my hair, breathing deeply,

than

cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

can I always

People think I’m a fucking

I’m tough

one sees the fucked

I flex my fingers, trying

a void

into it and never

where you want to

cry, both threatening to take over,

wreak havoc and destroy

or even…

something other than empty, angry or out

if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so

down, I know I’ll fuck

stare at

to talk to me… but does it even

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

my heart thundering, and

together again.

thought hurts, but I

he needed to

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks

chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I

vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two

to mask my aura,

Lycan tries

gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at the

within me. 4

sting and it feels like my head will burst as

wood but I