The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night

so much more

my head; he

be able to go back to

head to the

cradling Malevolent to my chest.

at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have

I

hook-ups aren’t

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually,

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted

other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I run

hair, breathing

more than to

want to scream, and cry, the

I always be

I’m

I’m tough

one sees the fucked

deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying

void so big I may

it and never

you want to

threatening

wreak havoc

me, or even…

something other than empty, angry or out

to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm…

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again.

at my phone.

to talk to me… but does it even

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and

together again.

I should be

he needed

with me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and frustration

Fuck calm down…

meows, but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in

chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to

of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two

to mask my aura, are

Lycan tries

Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood

within me. 4

head will burst as I grab

splinter the wood but I can’t