The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night

sting so much

he just

won’t be able to

to the lounge and

cradling Malevolent to my chest.

ceiling, and watch

in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get

did I do

hook-ups

teacher at the school? Usually, I am not

and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense.

and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I

to the other

Nice work.

onto my side, I

hair, breathing

than to

to scream, and cry, the guilt

I always be so

People think I’m a fucking

because I’m tough and I’ll jump

but no one sees the fucked up

flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid

void so big

and never return.

state where you want to

threatening to take over,

wreak havoc and destroy

or even… destroy

feel something other than empty,

of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I

know I’ll fuck up again.

stare at

I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if

together again.

but I should be happy

doesn’t mean he

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

feel my anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do

up, I run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast

and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging

on me to mask my

my Lycan

it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to

within me. 4

and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers,

the wood but I can’t hold