The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’ Why

sting so

he

be able to go back

the

cradling Malevolent to my

the ceiling, and watch the shadowy

reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but

I

casual hook-ups aren’t

at the school? Usually, I am not that

getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to

makes me a bitch,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

the other

Nice work.

my side, I run

my hair, breathing deeply,

than to hurt

to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

can I

People think I’m a fucking

I’m tough and

but no one sees the

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the

void so big

and

you want

both threatening to take over,

havoc and

me, or

feel something other than empty,

of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s

I know I’ll fuck up again. I always

at

if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

my heart thundering, and I wonder if something

together again.

I should be happy

he

with me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do

phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can

grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me

on me to mask my aura, are not enough right now.

as my Lycan

I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire,

within me. 4

my head will burst as I

but I can’t