The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’

words sting so

head; he just doesn’t know

I won’t be able

the lounge and

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to

I do

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come

and his refusal was getting to me…

it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that

to the other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I run my

my hair,

than to hurt

cry, the guilt and hollowness

can I always be so

People think I’m a fucking

I’m tough and I’ll jump

but no one sees

a deep breath, I flex my fingers,

and creating a void

into it and never

where you

cry, both threatening

to wreak havoc and destroy

me, or even…

want to feel something other than empty, angry or out of

the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong

know I’ll fuck up again.

stare at my

as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me…

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

I

he needed to

me… and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I

open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to come

hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura

my aura, are not enough right now.

growl as my Lycan tries to stop

gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting

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sting and it feels like my head will burst as I

splinter the wood but I can’t