The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’

so

head; he just doesn’t

won’t be able

to the lounge

sofa, cradling Malevolent

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the

the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are

I

hook-ups aren’t

at the school? Usually,

refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I

it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I

the other

Nice work.

my side, I

my hair,

than to hurt

cry, the guilt and

can I always be

People think I’m a fucking

tough and

no one sees the fucked

my fingers, trying to

and creating a void so

into it and

state where you

threatening to take over,

wreak havoc

or

something other than empty, angry or out of

Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not

down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I

stare at my phone.

betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

my heart thundering, and I wonder if something

together again.

hurts, but I

That doesn’t mean he needed to cut

and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and my

Fuck calm down…

and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something

open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing

hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches of

put on me to mask my aura,

as my Lycan tries to stop

and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away

within me. 4

like my head will

wood but I