The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’ Why

sting so

shake my head; he just doesn’t

won’t be able

to the lounge and

Malevolent to my chest.

ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns

dark, and the curtains are open, but

I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to

me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then I’ll

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that

other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side, I run

my hair,

more than

cry, the guilt and hollowness

I always

I’m a fucking

I’m tough

but no one sees the fucked up shit inside my head…

my fingers, trying to rid

and creating a void so big I

into it and never return.

you want

cry, both threatening to take over,

havoc and destroy

me, or even… destroy

something other than empty, angry or

I stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I always

stare at my phone.

feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder

together again.

I should be happy

he needed

me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks

open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but

with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura

mask my aura, are not

as my Lycan tries to stop

scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to

within me. 4

it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto

but I can’t