The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’ Why

sting so

he just doesn’t

be able to go

the

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the

and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up and close

I

hook-ups aren’t

a teacher at the school? Usually, I am

to

it makes me a bitch, but if I

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

the other so

Nice work.

side,

hair, breathing deeply,

than to

I want to scream, and cry, the

I always

I’m

because I’m tough and I’ll jump

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside

I flex my fingers,

creating a void so big

into it and never return.

state where you

threatening

to wreak havoc and destroy

me, or even…

just want to feel something other

sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in

down, I know

at my phone.

refusing to talk

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

and I wonder if

together again.

I

That doesn’t mean he needed to cut

with me… and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and

Fuck calm down…

meows, but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I

Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I

grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra

my aura, are not enough right

Lycan tries to

it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my

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will burst as I grab onto the chest

the wood but I can’t

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