The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’

sting so much more

shake my head; he

won’t be able to go back to

the lounge and

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

watch the

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are

did I

casual hook-ups aren’t

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the

to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to

was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

other so easily…

Nice work.

side,

hair,

more than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the

I always be

I’m

I’m tough and

have… but no one

fingers, trying

me and creating a void so big I

and

you want to

both threatening to take

to wreak havoc

or even…

feel something other than empty,

can’t let it happen again even if he

deep down, I know I’ll

at my

him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I wonder if something

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

doesn’t mean he needed

and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and

Fuck calm down…

can’t lose control.

around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging

bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around

my

as my Lycan tries to stop me

me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on

within me. 4

my head will burst as

but I can’t hold

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