The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night hook-up…’

words sting so much more

he

won’t be able to go back to

I head to the lounge

sofa, cradling Malevolent to

and watch

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up and close

I do

hook-ups

and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am

and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense.

and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll

the other

Nice work.

my side, I run my

my hair,

than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside

can I always

think I’m

tough and I’ll

one sees the fucked up shit inside my

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling

creating a void so big

it and never return.

state where you

cry, both threatening to take

havoc and destroy

or even…

feel something other than empty, angry or out of

I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with

down, I know I’ll fuck

stare at my phone.

as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

and I wonder if

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be

mean he needed to

me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and

Fuck calm down…

even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral.

scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the

grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so

to mask my aura, are

my Lycan

it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as

within me. 4

eyes sting and it feels like my head will burst as I grab

wood but I can’t hold