The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’

so much

shake my head; he just

won’t be able to go back to

to the lounge and drop

Malevolent to my

ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get

did I do

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come of

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m

makes me a bitch,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

Royce finds out, I bet

the other so easily…

Nice work.

onto my side,

my hair,

than to

scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

I always be so

think I’m a

because I’m tough and

one sees the fucked up shit inside my head…

a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying

creating a void so big I

and never return.

where you want to

both threatening to take over,

to wreak havoc and destroy

or even… destroy

something other than empty,

Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so

momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck

stare at my phone.

feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

upright, my heart thundering, and I

together again.

I should be

mean he needed to cut

and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something I

process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the

lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even

put on me to mask my aura, are not enough right

as my Lycan

scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting

within me. 4

and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the

wood but I can’t