The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 17

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’ Why

so much more

head; he just doesn’t know

able

I head to the lounge and drop

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy

I do

hook-ups aren’t

I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually,

know I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

other

Nice work.

my side,

my hair, breathing deeply,

than

cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

how can I always

I’m a fucking

I’m tough

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit

deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid

me and creating a void so big I

it and

where you want to

both threatening to take

to wreak havoc and

me, or even…

something other than empty, angry or out

casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in

is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up

at my phone.

sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

doesn’t mean he needed to

me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

feel my anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in

the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it

aura raging around me so powerfully that

my

Lycan tries to stop me

gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to

within me. 4

my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers,

the wood but I can’t hold

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