The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night

so much

shake my head; he just

won’t be able

head to the lounge

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of

the curtains are open, but I have no energy to

I do

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually,

getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying

makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

the other so

Nice work.

side, I run my

my hair, breathing

more than to

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside

I always be so

I’m

I’m tough

one sees the fucked

my fingers,

a void so big I may

and never

state where you want

threatening to take

wreak havoc and destroy

or

something other than

myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not

know

stare at

as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

hurts, but I should

That doesn’t mean he needed to

with me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

feel my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something

I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the

and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me

my

growl as my Lycan tries

cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood

within me. 4

head will burst as I grab

wood but I

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