The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night

sting so much

shake my head; he just

I won’t be able to go back to

to the lounge and

sofa, cradling Malevolent to

and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no

I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come of

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I

makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then I’ll

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be

the other

Nice work.

side,

hair, breathing deeply,

more than

want to scream, and cry, the

I always be

I’m a

because I’m tough and I’ll

I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside

fingers, trying

creating a void so big I

and

you

both threatening to take over,

wreak havoc and destroy

or even… destroy

other than empty, angry or out of

the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he

momentary… deep down, I know I’ll

at my phone.

I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I wonder

together again.

thought hurts, but I should be happy

mean he needed to cut

with me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and frustration rising, and my

Fuck calm down…

now, I can’t lose control. I hate

the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel

grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two

mask my aura,

growl as my Lycan tries

it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away

within me. 4

and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of

the wood but