The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night

sting so much

shake my head; he just doesn’t

able to

I head to the lounge

cradling Malevolent to my

the ceiling, and watch the

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open,

I

hook-ups aren’t

with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that

was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

I bet he’ll be disgusted

other

Nice work.

onto my side, I

my hair, breathing

than to hurt

cry, the

I always be

I’m a

because I’m tough

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit

fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling eating

void so big I

it and

state where you want to

threatening to take over,

wreak havoc

or even…

to feel something other

happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with

down, I know

stare at my phone.

one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

thought hurts, but I

he

me… and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

meows, but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I

the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel

of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra

my aura, are

growl as my Lycan tries to stop me

it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at the

within me. 4

head will burst as I grab onto

splinter the wood but I can’t