The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 17

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night

so

head; he

won’t be able to go back

the

cradling Malevolent

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns

window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get

I

casual hook-ups aren’t uncommon

but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the

was getting to

was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

other

Nice work.

side, I run my

hair,

more than to hurt

scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

how can I

People think I’m

I’m tough and I’ll jump

with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up

I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling

a void so

it and never

where you want

cry, both threatening to

havoc and

me, or

something other than empty, angry or out

if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible

I know I’ll fuck up again. I always

stare at my phone.

but he’s the one refusing to talk

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and

together again.

but I

he

me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever

drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it

serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of

me to mask my aura, are not enough

as my Lycan tries to stop

and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall

within me. 4

and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers,

wood but I can’t

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