The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night hook-up…’ Why

so much

shake my head; he just

be able

I head to the lounge and

Malevolent to my

the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

are open, but I have no energy to get up and close

I

hook-ups aren’t

with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

makes me a

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

to the other so easily…

Nice work.

my side, I run my

hair,

more than to

cry, the guilt and hollowness

how can I always be so

I’m

I’m tough and I’ll jump

I have… but no one sees the fucked up

a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to

a void

it and never return.

you want

cry, both threatening to take

havoc and

me, or even…

something other than

to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I

stare at my phone.

one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and

together again.

I

That doesn’t mean he needed to cut

me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I

my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to

bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells

on me to mask my aura, are not enough right now.

my Lycan tries to stop

and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my

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eyes sting and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto

the wood but I can’t