The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night

words sting so

shake my head; he just

I won’t be able to go back to

I head to the lounge and

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns

curtains are open, but I have no energy to

did I do

hook-ups aren’t uncommon

who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually,

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then I’ll

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

out, I bet

the other

Nice work.

side,

my hair, breathing deeply,

than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt

how can I always be

I’m a

I’m tough and I’ll jump

one sees the

fingers, trying to rid the horrid

and creating a void so big I

into it and never return.

where you want to

cry, both threatening

havoc and destroy

me, or

just want to feel something other

stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in

down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I

at

feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and

together again.

but I should be happy

he needed to cut

and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do

the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but

serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around

mask my aura,

as my Lycan tries to stop

and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting

within me. 4

feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers,

but I can’t hold