The Dark Side of Fate

12 Letting Go

~Leo~

A week passed, and the reality of what had happened to me sank in.

I had sent Amanda home to her father, so I could mourn my wife. Max asked me to release her, but I couldn’t. Releasing her meant I had given up on her and I didn’t want to give up.

I didn’t know if she was well or what they were doing to her there.

“We need to release her, or the Dark

Alpha will see our mark on her as an act of defiance,” Black warned me, but I couldn’t.

I decided I would write a letter to the wolf lord. Pleading with him to give me back my wife and promising never to work or act against him.

I did not care if what I was doing was

foolish, but I had to do something. I could

not sit on my arse and mope. If he won’t give her back, the least he can do is let me hear her voice and know that she is okay and happy where she is.

“You will be causing more harm than good. What if he sees it as an act of defiance? Did it ever occur to you that

Tamia gave herself so we could live? The situation was terrible, Leo. We would

have died; they would have killed all three of us. She chose the best option that kept us alive. Tamia is a smart woman; that is why we fell in love with her. She will take care of herself there, but she isn’t coming back, Leo. Do not deceive yourself. Take the gift of life and peace that she gave us by sacrificing herself and make the most of it,” Black said, and I roared. 1

“If I find that Devin,” I said aloud, and Black growled.

“Now that bastard has a lot of explaining to do. He touches what is ours and then goes back on our deal with him with a flimsy excuse,” Black said, agreeing with

I walked to my table in the living room. It was the only furniture there. I was yet to fix the place.

I sat with a pen and paper and decided to write a letter to the Wolf Lord. I was taking what my wolf said into

consideration. The first letter was to

Tamia.

“My Emerald Queen,

I am still going through the motions. I would be lying to you if I said I am handling it well. You knew I would have willingly died, but you did the right thing when I did not have the courage to do it. I could not leave things where we left off. I am sorry for everything. I tried, but my

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best wasn’t good enough. I did not plan to have that baby with Amanda, it was

sudden, and I would have willingly tried with you. I would have made an effort. I wanted to have a daughter that looked like you and had your strength. I guess fate really had it in for us when it messed up our happily ever after, and took you to the north. I pray you find peace and Joy there. I know it is crazy, but I hope you get to do all that you want. If he ever lets you go, know that you will always have a home with me. I will release you to make your life easier with the Wolf lord. I do not know what or who you will be there, but I pray that the same fate that destroyed us smiles on you there. I love you, Tamia; I always have and always will. Mountain will never have a luna again. Until I die. That is a promise that I will never break. Yours, Leo/ Black” 6

I read the letter several times, and each time, tears fell because it felt like I was

letting go. I hated my life at those

wished I

knew that would be suicide for my

could not let her sacrifice be in vain. 1

folded the letter and

another letter addressed to

“Your eminence,

to save my pack, my life and my fated. I do

return her, but I plead with

found

to have coffee in the morning. She always goes on runs. When serving her hot chocolate,

talks in her sleep whenever she is having a nightmare. I always wear her socks at night because her feet get cold, regardless of the weather. She doesn’t eat after six in the evening, and she likes her privacy. She always acts brave, but deep down, she is sweet, innocent and loving. She speaks her mind most of the time and is a great critical thinker. Do not take her defiance as offensive. She is just herself. Please do not kill

her loss;

her, and if you ever feel kindly towards her someday, let her go

an Alpha but as a husband that has lost his wife

tears streamed down my face with the last words. I did not want to admit to myself that she wasn’t coming back. Even though I dared not try to take her back, this was

folded the letter in an envelope and linked Casper,

house.

arrived a few minutes after I had

he was

with nothing

table and chair.

asked, concerned for

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to spend some time with her father”, I replied.

like shit,” Casper said, and I nodded.

too,” I said, and

Luna,” He told me, speaking his truth, and I nodded because the

is all Kyle’s fault; he shouldn’t be

The Dark Alpha only

taunted.

a pack in the Western region?”

me, and

bastard denies doing it,” I

someone did

because the Dark Alpha’s claims.

the west from his oppression. The men that were captured said it was Alpha Kyle who

Devin?” I asked.

I growled. I wanted to find his faults

to

handing him my

of the letter.

farewell to my wife and a plea to the

said.

it and

I was eager to go. I might have given him

was still grieving their loss; even Max was grieving Avery. Sometimes I believed he was psychotic.

not treat his luna well, I wondered why he was grieving her, but it wasn’t my place

complaints, and I walked up to him. He was about to speak when I punched