Stronger by Ang Chris

Chapter 16

I felt so displayed and exposed. He had walked away again. I tried to stop from crying but anger, frustration, and vulnerability overflowed.

I sunk to my feet covering my mouth keeping all sounds inside. I let them flow down.

*I’m going to cry. I’m going to be upset. This is not what I wanted. Then I’m going to stand up and make sure he doesn’t

see.

I gasped and pressed my l*ps shut. I cleaned up my face. I dried my hair. This is not what I had expected. This is not what I want.

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I finished getting myself ready. I put on baggy clothes wanting to forget he’d seen it all and backed away.

He was in Brians’s room when I got out there and I ate my breakfast in silence. Thankfully I did not have to the scorn on his face.

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I grabbed some of my favorite books from the trunk of the car sitting in my seat and putting in my earbuds turning them up all the way.

I wanted the stories I knew to have a happy ending. I wanted to know if it would all work out for a moment. I would not look at him again. I would not give him an opening to humiliate me.

Resentment, fury, disgust, and embarrassment swilled and stormed chasing around inside of me. I felt like I was suffocating in it all. 1

When we got to the hotel that night I placed a blank card on my face. I would not give away anything.

“Anna?” Ella knocked on the door of my room as we were getting ready to go to dinner.

“Come in,” I took a deep breath and turned to put my hair up halfway to keep it out of my face.

“Are you okay?” she sat down on the bed.

I froze, terrified of what was to follow. He hadn’t. Please tell me he hadn’t.

“Why do you ask?” I closed my eyes trying to stay calm.

“You’ve been so quiet today. I thought you’d be excited we’re finally in Canada. I know we’re barely across the border but.” she shrugged looking at me as if I should explain. “This morning you didn’t say a word and you looked so. Sad or angry I don’t know but you seem upset,”

shrugged as nonchalantly as

He kept his dismissal of me

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Grayson if that’s what you’re worried about. He’s my aloha but you’ll

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sighed. “Just missing home,” I falsely responded. Smiling so she bought

pack and they’ll love you. I’m sure that it is hard leaving your home but don’t worry. Let’s eat some

openly care for me. I didn’t realize how used

“Of course,”

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night. The men had taken it upon themselves to

medallions with bearnaise sauce and a side of shrimp.

refused to look at him but if he thought I didn’t see his quick and frequent glances my way he was wrong.

had left me there n*ked. How did he expect

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room he placed his

once.

didn’t walk away from me like that. In a moment that was pure and happy and intimate‘ and

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not want to be anywhere near him. I changed

know this morn-”

into bed rolling over and turning off the lights.

over and turning the light in again. “I know it was. I wanted. I’m sorry that

couldn’t control myself,”

up and looked

am trying to be respectful I don’t want to

what it is that’s stopping you but if you can’t do something don’t start something. You have no idea how I felt after you left. I’m sorry that this is so hard for you but until you can recognize it’s hard for me you can refrain from speaking to

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so she accepted me with a

to say something. It probably wasn’t easy to see your leaders argue when they had just found each other

ate together, Grayson keeping a distance

enough time had passed

takes his role very seriously. He lives his life for the pack and we all are lucky to have him. I know it’s a hard task but if you give him time I

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loyalty out of everyone I had met so far and that was a good sign

like the others; the only difference was the cars were now jeeps. The road to his pack was over some