Stronger by Ang Chris

Chapter 16

I felt so displayed and exposed. He had walked away again. I tried to stop from crying but anger, frustration, and vulnerability overflowed.

I sunk to my feet covering my mouth keeping all sounds inside. I let them flow down.

*I’m going to cry. I’m going to be upset. This is not what I wanted. Then I’m going to stand up and make sure he doesn’t

see.

I gasped and pressed my l*ps shut. I cleaned up my face. I dried my hair. This is not what I had expected. This is not what I want.

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I finished getting myself ready. I put on baggy clothes wanting to forget he’d seen it all and backed away.

He was in Brians’s room when I got out there and I ate my breakfast in silence. Thankfully I did not have to the scorn on his face.

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I grabbed some of my favorite books from the trunk of the car sitting in my seat and putting in my earbuds turning them up all the way.

I wanted the stories I knew to have a happy ending. I wanted to know if it would all work out for a moment. I would not look at him again. I would not give him an opening to humiliate me.

Resentment, fury, disgust, and embarrassment swilled and stormed chasing around inside of me. I felt like I was suffocating in it all. 1

When we got to the hotel that night I placed a blank card on my face. I would not give away anything.

“Anna?” Ella knocked on the door of my room as we were getting ready to go to dinner.

“Come in,” I took a deep breath and turned to put my hair up halfway to keep it out of my face.

“Are you okay?” she sat down on the bed.

I froze, terrified of what was to follow. He hadn’t. Please tell me he hadn’t.

“Why do you ask?” I closed my eyes trying to stay calm.

“You’ve been so quiet today. I thought you’d be excited we’re finally in Canada. I know we’re barely across the border but.” she shrugged looking at me as if I should explain. “This morning you didn’t say a word and you looked so. Sad or angry I don’t know but you seem upset,”

as nonchalantly

didn’t tell her. He kept his dismissal of me

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worried about. He’s my aloha but you’ll be my luna,” she offered.

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home,” I falsely responded.

sure that it is hard leaving your home but don’t worry. Let’s eat

I didn’t realize how used to the affection I

“Of course,”

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was a steakhouse that night. The men had taken it upon

bearnaise sauce and a side of shrimp. The food was wonderful yet again.

he thought I didn’t see his quick and frequent

would not let this go. He had left me there n*ked. How did he expect me to

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placed his hand on

once.

from me like that. In a moment that was pure and happy and intimate‘ and you

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hurried into the bedroom. I did not want to be anywhere near him. I changed into

know this

don’t want to hear it,” I crawled into

and turning the light in again. “I know it was. I wanted. I’m sorry that it happened

couldn’t control

you were sorry it happened,” I sat up and

covered his eyes, annoyed with me.” I am trying to be respectful I don’t want

know what it is that’s stopping you but if you can’t do something don’t start something. You have no idea how I felt after you left. I’m sorry that this is so hard for you but until

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had heard me yelling so she accepted me

say something. It probably wasn’t easy to see your leaders argue when they had just found each other but she was

ate together, Grayson keeping

think enough time had passed and her resolves had faded.

doesn’t trust easily and he takes his role very seriously. He lives his life for the pack and we all are lucky to have him. I know it’s a hard task

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wanted the best for us and she cared about him. Grayson evoked strong loyalty out of everyone I had met so far

the only difference was the cars were now jeeps. The road to his pack was over some rocks to keep