Stronger by Ang Chris

Chapter 16

I felt so displayed and exposed. He had walked away again. I tried to stop from crying but anger, frustration, and vulnerability overflowed.

I sunk to my feet covering my mouth keeping all sounds inside. I let them flow down.

*I’m going to cry. I’m going to be upset. This is not what I wanted. Then I’m going to stand up and make sure he doesn’t

see.

I gasped and pressed my l*ps shut. I cleaned up my face. I dried my hair. This is not what I had expected. This is not what I want.

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I finished getting myself ready. I put on baggy clothes wanting to forget he’d seen it all and backed away.

He was in Brians’s room when I got out there and I ate my breakfast in silence. Thankfully I did not have to the scorn on his face.

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I grabbed some of my favorite books from the trunk of the car sitting in my seat and putting in my earbuds turning them up all the way.

I wanted the stories I knew to have a happy ending. I wanted to know if it would all work out for a moment. I would not look at him again. I would not give him an opening to humiliate me.

Resentment, fury, disgust, and embarrassment swilled and stormed chasing around inside of me. I felt like I was suffocating in it all. 1

When we got to the hotel that night I placed a blank card on my face. I would not give away anything.

“Anna?” Ella knocked on the door of my room as we were getting ready to go to dinner.

“Come in,” I took a deep breath and turned to put my hair up halfway to keep it out of my face.

“Are you okay?” she sat down on the bed.

I froze, terrified of what was to follow. He hadn’t. Please tell me he hadn’t.

“Why do you ask?” I closed my eyes trying to stay calm.

“You’ve been so quiet today. I thought you’d be excited we’re finally in Canada. I know we’re barely across the border but.” she shrugged looking at me as if I should explain. “This morning you didn’t say a word and you looked so. Sad or angry I don’t know but you seem upset,”

fine,” I shrugged as nonchalantly as

his dismissal of me to

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won’t tell Grayson if that’s what you’re worried about. He’s my aloha but you’ll

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home,” I falsely responded. Smiling so she

hard leaving your home but don’t worry. Let’s eat some

someone openly care for me. I didn’t realize how used to the affection I was.

“Of course,”

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men had taken it upon themselves to order the biggest steaks

with bearnaise sauce and a side of shrimp. The food was wonderful yet again.

him but if he thought I didn’t see his quick and frequent glances my way he was

this go. He had left me there n*ked. How did he expect me to react?

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to the room he placed his hand on my back and I moved

once.

don’t get to pretend you didn’t walk away from me like that. In a moment that was pure and happy and intimate‘ and you broke

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into the bedroom. I did not want to be anywhere near him. I changed into my pajamas and was crawling into bed when he came into sleep on the couch.

know

don’t want to hear it,” I crawled into bed rolling

turning the light in again. “I know it

couldn’t control myself,”

it happened,” I sat up and looked him in the eyes,

covered his eyes, annoyed with me.” I am trying to be respectful I don’t want to make you

sorry that this is so hard for you but until you can recognize it’s hard for me you can

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had heard me yelling so she accepted me with a

in and she sat next to me. I knew she wanted to say something. It probably wasn’t easy to see your leaders argue when they had just found each other but she was mindful and

ate together, Grayson keeping a distance as I asked.

were getting ready I think enough time had passed and

and he takes his role very seriously. He lives his life for the pack and we all are lucky to have him. I know it’s a hard task but if

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in return. I knew she wanted the best for us and she cared about him. Grayson evoked strong loyalty out of everyone I had

the others; the only difference was the cars were now jeeps. The road to his pack was over some rocks to keep out humans.