Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all the

family

have just been fine with

“Ava?”

I had gotten lost

were also drunk, so if they were blaming you, they should have blamed him too” he gives

him

I

and I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage of an

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innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to unveil all

got so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has

of his drunken state that sometimes I doubt the

sad really. That sometimes I think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty isn’t that the

pain I went through at Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and

when the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I

especially. That a man

is Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During

was so tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell

didn’t want Emma

glad that I had chosen

blame, Never. You were both drunk so no one was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for

the one that sought him

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matter. He gave you alcohol knowing that you weren’t supposed to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more I dislike them” he

I was beginning

says then helps me stand

going?” I ask

longer. I didn’t

don’t like seeing you trying to drown

me time to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the