Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

5. Shoot out

Nothing about the day spelled disaster. The sun was shining and everything seemed to be well in place as I drove down the familiar streets.

The chapel was fully packed when we arrived. Almost everyone had come to pay their last respects.

I surveyed the place and was satisfied to see everything was in place. None of the others had been much help when it came to the burial preparation. I was the one that was left to shoulder the weight of everything.

I didn’t complain though. I took it as a chance for me to reciprocate what he’d done for me. After all, he had fed me, clothed me and put a room over my head.

The service was about to begin and most people were already seated. I decided to sit on the opposite side. It didn’t feel right sitting with the rest. It especially didn’t feel right sitting next to Emma.

“Mom, why are we sitting here…shouldn’t we sit next to grandma?” Noah asks, pointing at where the others were.

Of course we were getting weird looks but I didn’t care. After all, it wasn’t a secret that I wasn’t wholly accepted by the family after everything that happened.

“Most people are already seated. I don’t want us to cause a fracas” I lie.

He looks like he doesn’t believe me but choses to let it go. The father arrives and the sermon begins just as I feel someone sit next to me.

I tense. I would know his presence and cologne anywhere. I don’t know what he was doing seated here. He should be with his precious Emma. In fact I would prefer if he were there.

Damn I sound bitter. Which I was. Bitter, angry and hurt.

“Dad” Noah whisper yells, which causes a few people to turn and look at us.

I glower at them making them turn back around.

sit between the two of you?” Noah whispers

of relief. Thank goodness for small miracles. I wouldn’t have to be

him. The moment we do,

Changed it and touched the lives of those that you met along the way? Or will you leave it

am I kidding?

shadow that was Emma nailed in the fact that I can never be good enough for anyone. I wasn’t as beautiful as she was. S**y as she was. Smart as she was. Loved as she was. I wasn’t perfect as Emma was. I was nothing compared to

is bigger than mine. Her happiness is a priority over

voice pulls me

I realize that the service was

okay?” his deep voice always makes

alone look at him but I’ll have to because for the

I stand up, without looking at him. I know it seems rude but I just can’t look at him. Not when the memory of him

Noah, let’s

the door. Once we’re outside we’re bombarded by a crowd of people wanting to give us their

father yet and I was already

finally decided to show your face” Emma’s bitter voice

Her face was blotchy and her eyes were red and puffy, but she still looked

I so didn’t want to

now Emma. Can we

that I’m

plan to take everything back, including the man that was meant to be mine” she then steps aside and leaves just as the preacher calls us to go to back where the

of my sister but doesn’t say anything. I’m left shocked at

to take anything back because none of them were mine to begin with. The family she’s talking about worships the ground she walks one. And Rowan? Rowan was and

wanted to drown me, I lead Noah to the

huddled together. Looking at them and me you would think that I was a stranger just attending the burial instead

to dust…” the preacher says as

to cover his coffin with soil until he is completely buried. Mother’s wails are the loudest as she begs for father to come back to her.

this brings tears to my eyes. I hate seeing him in pain. I wipe my tears away.

I was there

and ma” he drags me pointing