Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

3. Emma’s back

I sat on the cold hospital chair breathing in then out. Mother was still sobbing and she couldn’t be consoled. My heart broke for her. I understand it isn’t easy losing the man you love in such an unexpected way.

It was still a shock. I expected him to make a full recovery but now he was dead and I had no idea how to feel.

We never saw eye to eye and even though he hated me. I loved him. He was after all my father so how could I not love him?

“You okay?” Rowan asks sitting down beside me.

He arrived about an hour ago and this is the first time he talked to me since he came. I didn’t know what to do with the concern he was showing. After all he has never taken my feelings into consideration before.

“Yeah” I manage to say.

I haven’t shed a tear since we were given the news. Maybe it was belated shock or maybe I ran out of tears for him. Right now I was doing all I could to stay afloat since everyone else was breaking down.

I see feet in my peripheral vision and when I look up I find Travis staring at me. Just like always there isn’t a flicker of warmth in his eyes when he looks at me. I know what I did was a wrong but I haven’t I paid enough for that night?

“What?” I ask him.

called Emma when dad got shot so she should be arriving soon. She still doesn’t know that dad didn’t make it” he

that her name still affects him. The warmth he provided just a few minutes ago turns cold and I know that

figured” I mumble because what else is

years. I doubt she would want to be in the same vicinity

be cordial and give her space” mother adds, wiping the tears from her

what you’re

you do that again especially now that

enough for the actions I took when I was young and foolish? Yet they keep punishing

forgotten I’m also your daughter or am I also dead to

I stand up and leave. I needed fresh

but I refuse to let them fall. What am I even doing here? Why did she bother calling me if she feels like she only

After all, I never considered myself part of their family and they didn’t consider me as one of their own too. I should just leave and forget about them just like they seem to have

a nurse appears scaring the shit out of

head after calming down my

needed. They’re viewing the body” she softly tells

give me a

still provided for me so I owe him. With that, I make a decision. I would give him a proper burial,

perfect little family. They would no longer have to put up with me like

back inside, I ask for the direction to the morgue. By the time I get there, the rest had

down at him. Lying cold in the slab. He looks so at peace. Kind of like he does when he is asleep. You would think that he is just resting. Instead he was dead. His soul long departed

I

heaviness that settles over my heart knowing he wasn’t the only one I would be saying goodbye to. They would never love me. It was time I let go of