Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted

his throat, obviously

not?” Noah asks

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me you”

a placation not

that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped

said those three words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or when

of our marriage. I gave him my all but he

marriage. Him, me and the love of

way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a

told you it’s rude to

the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

the kitchen

eyes pins me to

The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad.

give them

down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to

before he steps away

my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

truth though,

in mind. This was HER dream house,

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on

at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt

the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring

at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I

to ease the pain that was

no good. It still fucking hurts

you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out

for a

fighting” he commands

is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the

have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready