Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the

clears his throat, obviously

do you love mommy or not?”

in defeat. “I love her for giving me

was a placation not

I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small

got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in

held himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except

our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to

way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after

told you it’s rude to

Interrupting my thoughts in the process.

near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband,

pins me to the

my son. My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are

I give them

half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me

I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back to

my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

though,

unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER

first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go.

he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t

the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy

his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can

heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding

a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with

to ease the pain that was encased

hurts even though

up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something”

us for

fighting” he commands before

as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the

have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips