Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he

his throat, obviously stalling.

mommy or not?” Noah

in defeat. “I love her for giving me you”

placation not an

pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all

when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or when

himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he

of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s

was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that didn’t want

anyone ever told you it’s rude to listen to other

voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders

he stands near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband, Rowan

mocking grey eyes pins me to

His good looks are definitely

them a

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me

his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

be my home, but now I feel

though, I never

or unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house,

should have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate

asks in annoyance and stares at

I could bring you the copy while I

Every time he looks at me like this, a

my heart and shattered my soul. I

finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The

ease the pain

does no good. It still fucking hurts even

something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out

for a minute before

fighting” he

bangs his fist on the counter in

to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his