Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he

throat, obviously

you love mommy or not?”

“I love her for giving me you” he finally

placation not

time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his

those three words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed

held himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him

but instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s

I rub them way. I was tired

ever told you it’s rude to listen

space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my

near the kitchen counter. My

pins

my son. My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy

them

down from the counter. He

forehead before he steps away

This used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

truth though, I never

this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to

planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate

annoyance and stares at his watch. “You

degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while I pick

time he looks at me like this, a piece of

my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but

I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl

to ease the pain that

It still fucking hurts

need to discuss something” Rowan

us for

he commands

is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His

sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a