Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would

throat, obviously

or not?” Noah asks again, his voice

in defeat. “I love her for giving me

placation not

After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I

words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had

entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except

of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman

them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that didn’t want

it’s rude to listen to other

Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and

stands near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband, Rowan

pins me to

life. His good looks are definitely

I give them a small

Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter.

his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back to

stand there awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I

though, I never

he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on

annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t

and I thought I could bring you the copy while I pick up

form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I

soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change,

finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his

Trying to ease the pain that was encased

good. It still fucking hurts even though

could you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched

for

fighting” he commands before

out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the

could have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to blow up on