Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still

clears his throat, obviously stalling.

do you love mommy or not?” Noah asks

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me

placation not an

I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t

those three words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed

him my

but instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his

rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

anyone ever told you it’s rude to

my thoughts in the process. I square

the kitchen counter.

eyes pins me to

life. His good looks are

I give them a small

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my mid-section. “I’ve missed

he steps away from me and goes back to his

be my home, but now I feel out

though, I

built this house with HER in mind. This

should have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting

in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt

know…I got the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while

a piece

has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change,

thought I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I

rub my chest. Trying to ease the pain

It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of his mouth in

for

he

bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey

son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks