Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our

throat,

or not?” Noah asks again, his

“I love her for giving me you” he

was a placation not

rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after

the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing

us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of

way. I was tired

ever told you it’s rude to listen to other people’s

space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process.

he stands near the kitchen counter.

mocking grey eyes pins me to

joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy

give them

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from

his forehead before he steps away from

used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

truth though, I

in mind.

he wasn’t planning on letting her

at his watch. “You promised

divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while

line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean a damn thing

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

married I thought I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting

Trying to ease the pain

hurts even though we’ve been

need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of his

for a minute before

he commands before

Rowan bangs his fist on the

son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to blow up