Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the truth or

his throat, obviously stalling.

mommy or not?” Noah asks

defeat. “I love her for giving

placation not

pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small

we got married or when I gave birth to Noah,

back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in

two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that didn’t want

ever told you it’s rude to listen to

thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

stands near the kitchen counter. My now

mocking grey eyes pins

pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good

I give them

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to

kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back to

home, but now I feel out of place

though, I never

with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That

in annoyance and stares at

degree today and I thought I could bring

form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean a damn

shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will

was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was

my chest. Trying to ease the pain that was

no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through

us for a

he commands

soon as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger.

office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are