Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I

his throat, obviously

do you love mommy or not?”

defeat. “I love her for giving me you” he finally

was a placation not

rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his

Not when we got married or when I gave birth

duration of our marriage. I gave him my all

of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for nine long

I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

told you it’s rude to listen

my thoughts in the

he stands near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband, Rowan

grey eyes pins me

to my son. My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good

them a

jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me

before he steps away from me and goes back to

my home, but now I feel out

though, I never

he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER

should have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my love for

here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised

got the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you

and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they never

I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I

chest. Trying to ease

no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth,

looks between us for a minute before

fighting” he

his fist on the counter

with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to blow