Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell

clears his throat,

or not?”

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me

placation not an

of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart

we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed

held himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but

marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused

way. I was tired of crying. Tired

it’s rude to listen to other people’s

space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

the kitchen counter. My

eyes pins me to the

The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown

them

from the counter. He

his forehead before he steps away from me and

to be my home, but now I feel out

though, I never

mind. This was HER dream house, everything down

that he wasn’t planning on letting her go.

here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t

and I thought I could bring you the

this, a piece of me

my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they never

I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl

chest. Trying to ease the pain that was

does no good. It still fucking hurts

could you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of

us for

fighting” he commands

out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy as he addresses

leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to blow up