Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

doesn’t love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this,

clears his throat,

or not?” Noah asks

love her for giving me you” he finally

a placation not an

fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t

those three words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave

through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him

marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

ever told you it’s rude

my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders

stands near the kitchen counter. My

mocking grey eyes pins me to the

My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks

I give them a small

places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He

love” I kiss his forehead before he

to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it.

truth though, I never

built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house,

first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t

doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised

degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while

this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean

and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will

I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting

my chest. Trying to ease the

still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping

us for a minute before

fighting” he commands before

Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger.

my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about