Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would

throat, obviously

not?” Noah asks again, his

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love

was a placation not

rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah,

our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return

instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me

but I rub them way. I was tired

ever told you it’s rude to

deep voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

kitchen counter. My now ex-husband,

mocking grey eyes pins

good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown

I give them a small

half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to

love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away

This used to be my home, but now I feel out of

though, I never

he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the color

the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her

here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at

degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while I

Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but

shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding

love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I could never measure up to no matter how much I

chest. Trying to ease the

fucking hurts even though we’ve

your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word

between us for a minute before

he commands before

his fist on the

office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to