Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the truth or lie

his throat, obviously

or not?” Noah asks

in defeat. “I love her for giving

was a placation not an

feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to

our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me

instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s

my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of

rude to listen to

my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband, Rowan

pins me

thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

them a

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He

before he steps away from me and goes back to his

be my home, but now I feel

truth though,

this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t

here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You

I thought I could bring you the copy

he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember

has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but

get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The

chest. Trying to ease the pain that

It still fucking hurts even

up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through

for

he commands

Rowan bangs his fist on

office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to blow up