Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his

clears his throat, obviously

or not?” Noah asks again,

defeat. “I love her for giving me

placation not an

my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a

when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in

the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave

of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for nine

I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a

it’s rude

voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I

stands near the kitchen counter. My

mocking grey eyes pins me to the

my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

I give them

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs

his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

truth though, I never

house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything

he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my

are you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t

got the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the

turns stone cold and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks.

he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I

turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I could never measure up to no matter

rub my chest. Trying to ease the

fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says

between us for a minute before

he commands

out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are

time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and