Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply.

clears his throat,

not?” Noah asks again, his voice

in defeat. “I love her for giving me

was a placation

all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of

married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or when

duration of our marriage. I gave him my

marriage. Him, me

I was tired of crying. Tired of

ever told you it’s rude to listen to other

the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process.

he stands near the kitchen counter. My

eyes pins me to

good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown

them a

sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes

love” I kiss his forehead before he

but now I feel out of place in it. Like

though, I never

house with HER in mind. This

the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t

you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my

thought I

he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t

I continued loving him. Holding on.

was wrong. Marriage turned to be a

Trying to ease the

hurts even though we’ve been separated for

could you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of

looks between us for a minute

fighting” he commands

on the

them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl.