Accepting My Twin Mates by Unwise Owl

Accepting My Twin Mates Chapter 11

Chapter 11 – Did I Want To Know?

Badru

I tried to make a joke… again… and it had backfired… again.

Evie wasn’t amused in the slightest. She actually shivered away from me further. My brother punched me in my bicep, making me glare at him before he absconded up the trellis. Like I needed a reminder of how stupid I was. Our mate looking at me with disgust was all the reminder I needed.

I just wanted to hold her properly. The only contact I had had so far was her sending me sailing through the air and the world’s most eye-watering nut-shot. Despite that, the tingles I had felt were all I wanted to feel for the rest of my life. My entire soul had erupted in life during our brief contact and there wasn’t another brush of skin I wanted more than hers. And her scent? What kind of pheromones was she emitting? I could drink the spicy vanilla aroma for eternity and it still wouldn’t be enough. I knew I affected her too. I saw how she checked out both Astennu and myself and swiftly turned her pink cheeks away, thinking she hadn’t been caught ogling.

I may have been the impulsive one, but I was confident with it. Evie, however, made me feel unnaturally insecure and I didn’t know how to approach her. I had innocently flirted with girls in the past, without it meaning anything; a cheeky wink here and there, flash a little grin and usually, girls tripped over themselves, giggling and blushing. This was all I knew and none of it was working with my mate. Goddess above, this woman made me nervous.

‘Maybe try and be a little more innocent. Appeal to her wolf, she’s the one that wants to communicate, I can feel it,’ my wolf suggested.

‘How the hell do I play innocent?’ Even as a child, I hardly looked innocent.

‘Bat your eyes and give her the puppy look! How can she say no?’ Baniti seemed awfully sure and enthusiastic about his idea.

I up-turned my brows, hoping this was ‘puppy’ enough to melt her wolf. She huffed loudly, throwing her head back… did I just win?!

Evie

The look Badru gave me was enough to melt me into the snow where I stood. I didn’t want to give up and lose this stand-off, but heavens, was it hard to resist those big deep blues of his… of both of them.

‘Oh for goddess’s sake, just toss the pup a bone,’ Evva sniggered. I noticed she was growing increasingly quiet. Was she linking with their wolves? Guess I was being guilt-tripped by everyone today.

I sighed loudly, admitting defeat. “What the hell, turn around. No way I’m holding on to the front.”

His face lit up instantly, like an excited pup on Winter Solstice morning, the werewolf version of Christmas. If anything, it made him even more deliriously handsome. He turned and dipped a little; we weren’t that vastly different in height, so it wasn’t as though I had to climb him like a tree. I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly and gripped his waist securely with my thighs, almost losing my grip when my ankle brushed against his rigid c**k. Goddess above, he felt perfect. The naturally strong scent from his marking site where my head lay on his neck wasn’t helping either in keeping me lucid. Its warm and maddening swirl of cinnamon and nutmeg coupled with being wrapped around his naked body was starting to make certain regions throb.

‘And you humans call us wolves the hormonal ones,’ Evva sniggered. Though I could feel she was overly enjoying our close proximity just as much, if not more.

The tingles, now that I could fully appreciate them, were simply wonderful. I would never admit to it aloud, but I never wanted to let either go. They were equal in strength and distinct in touch. Both instilled a sense of relief; the sparks from Astennu were a blanket, warm and steadfast and the sparks from Badru held excitement and devotion. The calm and the tranquillity came with a double-edged sword; as beautiful as they felt, I couldn’t hope to become attached to them.

they only brought me back

in the pit of my stomach at the thought. Even as Astennu helped me through the window, now thankfully wearing a pair of sweats that hung low showing his prominent V-lines, I couldn’t stop myself

awkward silence that hung in the air was palpable, bitter in its taste. I could feel their heated stare on my skin but I couldn’t make myself

and we can all get on

feel the sting in my eye and I had broken my promise not to cry in front of the twins once. I didn’t want to end up like Lucy… having my mates

Badru practically yelled. “I don’t wanna reject you! Are

for years. We both have. We want you, there’s no debate in it,” Astennu tried to step forward towards me, but I took two back. He

the truth, Evie,’ my wolf threw her

We just accept them,

and resolute. ‘But for that, we need to

when all I wanted was to either throw myself down dramatically and sob, or

are you thinking?” Astennu spoke looking worried and making me

could swear I could feel his and

truly didn’t

false hope would do none of us any good. “I need

pretty sure our parents have organised some huge party for us. I want you on our

what I needed, not wanted. “You want people to know we’re mates, when I don’t even know whether I want to give you a chance? You go right

right across the face. Maybe I had been a little too brutally honest. I really need to learn how

and to the side, starting to feel my eyes sting

of you have really hurt me in the past… right now, I don’t know if I can just let that go,” my voice quivered. “I just need some time to decide and

after everyone knew the truth. A rogue-born Luna… their parents would probably blow a gasket. But I didn’t need the hassle while I was trying to come to terms with all this. I didn’t need pack members saying I was no good, or saying I should be grateful and accept the twins, or that I was being an overdramatic b***h to make the guys wait. My position in the pack was less than favourable and them knowing I was mated to the heirs and to be their Luna, a whole separate issue I wouldn’t even begin

tear slipped down my cheek. I swiped at it quickly, but they

ok,” Astennu soothed. “Neither of us are going to pressure you into anything,”

you need, baby,” Badru tried to smile charmingly,

might add. He leapt backwards like I had just bitten him, Astennu’s mouth was

me, b***h,’ Evva preened to herself,

I thought you’d

Just because they’re our mates, doesn’t mean I’m about to accept them so easily either. They want us, they earn us,’ she bristled, raising her metaphorical hackles. ‘Before

even made me flinch. I didn’t know I would be able to make that sort of sound before shifting. We werewolves were born with two sets of vocal chords: one controlled by the human side that produced our speech, the other set was controlled by the wolf side and

the badass power move by my wolf and I silently appreciated how much

hate us and you have the right to…” Astennu glanced down

just complicated,” I mumbled. I knew I could never truly hate them, ever. I was just a bundle of confused emotions and